Busy is good. Busy is GREAT. I'm glad I decided to come to SoCal for the summer, but I am really missing everyone from school. There are people I owe apologies, second chances, better efforts, better friendships, less gossip, more love, and I'm looking forward to making at least some of those changes (as I give myself an out).

Anyway, Classes will be over in a week, and I'm glad that I took them because now I am so much more knowledgeable about organic food, environmental affets of people, how cultures adapt and maintain themselves in host cultures, how to plan and start a successful business.

Increasingly, LJ is not a good avenue for me to out my thoughts, feelings, or even daily diaries. So what is? I think th long-term answer will be a Blog, or in the very least a new journal. However, my writing, I think, is not up to snuff. I need to take a speech class, or something on narrative, in order to better present myself and my thoughts. I got my sister's old camera phone, but am not sure if I'm keeping it. The navigation on it SUCKS.

I'm still not ready for relationships. Or I act not ready. Or I don't think I'm ready, which renders me unable to act as if I am. There is no such thing as ready. Will I ever be ready? Is it because of me or the world around me that I am not? How can I change this? How do I make everything I am coincide with everything I feel and want? I'm still figuring me out. Why would I want another person attatched to my hip? Are these rhetorical? Are you sure?

Baltimore looms 3 weeks on the horizon, and despite possible shakyness with the roomy, I am excited. I'm ready for anything that could happen and that's cool. I still suck at some things. I'll eventually get better.

I have to gooooo.